Hello guys, I'm back after 6 days of procrastinate lol. I feel so guilty because I'm not posted anything last Saturday. I think I start to getting bored but I always remind myself to post anything on this blog consistently for next 3 months. Just calm and type anything I want to lol.

Last thing we talk about my definition of love like it was just a moment on life that will be disappear after a some times. Now I wanna talk about finding and building personal value in my teenage time. 

I'm like 18 years old right now and I'll be 19 in December. I don't know why I feel unready but excited at the same time because I probably start to part time and stuff and my dream would be come true in a few years. But sometimes when it's going through hard times and I couldn't reach anyone I'm just sitting on my bed and not doing anything for like some months, it always feel terrible because everytime I do that in my hard times it feels like I'm dead haha (I did it now :)) and when I'm going out with someone I'll feel better again but when I'm back I feel lost. I guess most people feel the same but they couldn't express them feeling.

Most of my friend probably going out with them friends/family and having fun, but for me when I did it it doesn't affect me anymore so I choose to just alone in my room for a really long time until I feel good about myself. I have going through a lot of things and I start finding things that I like and I hate. Since then I start to knowing myself better and Idk why I feel tired to do anything. I might be wise and stuff but I'm all alone and its okay because the other day I'll feel better 

Finding your value is really hard bcs you gonna going through a lot of things and feel down to got a lesson. For example, nothing is meaningless because everything happen bring some lesson. Or feeling let go of someone/some people and start standing by yourself makes you more independent and not rely on others. So the conclusions is no matter how hard your life be just feel it because your sad/happy feeling doesn't last forever and it will change over the time. See you tomorrow!

I'm really sorry to myself bcs I didn't write an article in this blog last week. I think it's a part of building a new habit and it was called concistensy.

So I just watched one of youtube video by Satu Persen about how to being concistent and it was correlated with making a new habit. At first I thought being concistent is making a new schedule for on 1 day that should be doing everyday. Well it looks like we're all going to be a robot! Haha. But after watching them videos (and practicing ofcourse) I started to understand that building a new habit is more compatible. In the video said that we need minimum 60 days to make a new habit a part of our life. I just started writing this blog again every Saturday since September. Now it's alread October so it was 1 month writing. 3 - 4 article a month. I started to losing interest last week and I have no idea plus my internet was sucks haha. There's nothing exasperate than that hahaha..

And well I'm winning Satu Persen blog comp, it was great because maybe I won 'cause I'm writing and collecting my article the same day the competition started LOL. Well I want to make myself be early before the deadline. I don't wanna be a deadliners. Even sometimes I feel like procrastinate a lot (bcs it's my bad old habit) I start to control them and appreactiate myself more. It really helps my self esteem tho. You guys should try that, it might be difficult at first but once you getting used to it, it'll be easier trust me 🤞

To building a new habit you should put awareness to it. Being conscious about what are you doing right now, things that you like, topic or news that you likely to read, and more. The more you know yourself the more easier for you to makes your life purpose. It does really work on me. Okay now I'm running out of words, I should read more haha. I think that's all, see ya next week!